Monday, December 15, 2008
!&; Nothing Beats How You Feel Now
6:58:00 PM
!&; Nothing Beats How You Feel Now
Dear Diary, ku ingin cerita kepadamu
tentangnya yang dulu singgah dihatiku
semenjak itu hidupku jadi bahagia
karena dia slalu ada dihidupku.. Ooo..
Tapi kini dia menghilang
dan tak tau entah dimana
diaryku, ku merindukannya..
pujaanku engkau ada dimana
Telah habis air mata dan
segenap kata-kata telah ku curahkan
haruskah aku berlari sampai keujung dunia, untuk mencarinya..
Please bare for my not-so-happy entries for the past few weeks/months and coming weeks to come, i guess :(
Every words from this song really related to me now about how i feel. There's so many things to say but i dont think it would be appropriate for me to type it out and let the whole world to know, what's the point? Im just sad and disappointed in him for doing this to me. I mean if i've done wrong towards you and i didnt realised then say it infront of my face, saying i've hurt you and et cetera. Dont give girl a false hope because only LOSER will do that. By disappearing doesnt solved the matter but it make it worse. No answer, no nothing! How coward can you be?
:(
Apart from that, yesterday i had a great day celebrating my aunt birthday despite i've to put a brave face infront of them; after what i've been going through a painful moment! 'N' knows about it. He completely know how i feel that time and he didnt stop giving me encouragement and a meaningful advice for me to be strong. I really appreciate his kindness. My tears couldnt stop flowing down my cheeks, when we started the conversation. Second sister was there too so basically she saw it. She and 'N' wants me to stop from crying but i just couldnt hold on my tears anymore so.. it keep flowing down and down without a stop. Finally, it stops by itself because there's no more tears for me to cry on and also it's all because i've been thinking back.. the happiness that i had from the birthday celebration. The bullying between uncle, cousin and et cetera:) What a fun and happy family gathering.
Well, pictures will be up soon no promise okay. So got to go, catching up on my chinese drama, CAMPUS SHREWD now.
Goodbye!
